what about now

I'm getting to miss capital H.I.M. so much...

joyride to lifetime

You got a fast car But is it fast enough so we can fly away We gotta make a decision We leave tonight or live and die this way 

-fast car by tracy chapman

Love is like driving on nowhere.. then a traffic light bumps your enjoyment...  (sight)
Let's put it this way.. love is like a traffic light... which it has three colors that becomes a guide to us when to stop, take some actions and let go..

First...

STOP

Loving someone so much doesn't mean that they were the right one for us... sometimes, you give all of you on that person, then he/she dont appreciate it that much.. which it hurts sometimes.. Sometimes, they will make you jealous so that they could see how much do you love them. And sometimes Love don't mean it ends on a happy ending.. because I know that love is never ending.. you can't stop it to the point that you cant actually returns. And it so hard to think also that "sometimes they can't afford to love you back as the way you love them." I know that is the irony of love but can I change it up? just for a change???

GO

"letting go doesn't mean giving up.. it is accepting things that cannot be."
It is just like a stuff that youve been actually invested it but at the end of the day, after you have it, it will actually stolen or fall into pieces. It is better that you gave it up or loosely freed it so that no one would be hurt that much as you've hurt yourself by loosing it.  as the saying say's you cant go to a place  that is not destined to you... Loving someone is setting them free and letting them go...

WAIT

then do some actions...

you dont know that there is a certain person that love you most, either your family or your closest friends. But you might not know... He is the person that will love you the way as you love the other person involved. he is the person also that accompanied you on your joyride that will actually be the person that you will share your ride to the lifetime.(and i hope that is was you..)

:)

NOSTALGIC ME

There are places we cant return, There are Lies you have to tell, Andtruths you cant deny.

quoted from the movie "Brokeback Mountain"

there are some times that you cant deny the fact that you fell in love in the right person on the wrong place, wrong time, and definitely at the wrong scenario. where in you should sacrifice everything for the sake of the relationship grows. just like taking the rain on the roof of my empty house, or by taking some tears now and let them fall out after he left me alone.

DAMN it.

I wished that I didn't met him for not experiencing this kind of pain....

MEAN it.

although I kept on lying on myself that he will come back....

And ACCEPT it..

that he will not love you the way that he loved you before.

THE LESSON THAT I LEARNED FROM IT:

So, finding the right person was not that simple, it actually makes you feel stupid by waiting for the perfect one.. but the person that comes on your life has so many flaws.. just accept that person and learn how to loved him the way that he loves you...  and while I'm waiting for that person, try to raise your VALORE so that the person that you are dreaming off could not afford to have you... although that person is getting married soon.. what the hect.. but I'm happy for that person and his future bride... best wishes to the two of you...

bitterness....

being bitter sometimes can heal a broken heart.. that was my philosophy right now.... with a cup of coffee in hand and a burning cigarette on the other while creating this post.. what the heck.. 

 

FIXING A BROKEN PRIDE

"THERE ARE TIMES THAT YOU NEED TO MOVE ON, THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT YOU CAN'T EXPLAIN. THINGS THAT MIGHT NOT CHANGE YOU BUT COULD CHANGE THE ENTIRE HUMANITY."

-QUOTED BY ME

the saddest quote that i ever read...

"i was walking in the rain so no one see me crying"

-Sir Charlie Chaplin

Charlie Chaplin was known for being the funniest man in the world, where people doesn’t know that he doesn’t have any problem regarding with the issues that he encountering in his entire life…. when i read about that quote in my inbox, i felt sad about it, cause why he do that kind of stuff… why he can’t express what he feels in private? why he do it under the pouring rain?

I get confuse on it, i don’t know why, why am i putting up myself on that kind of situation, maybe because im scared to cry, or maybe im a little bit confuse on what kind of effect on it afterwards…. (eye bags, watery eyes, or maybe red eye) what if, if i try to cry under the rain??? Maybe it is a little bit effective to hide on public that i’ve cried, right??? at least many people see me bathing under it but they doesn’t know that i’m already crying…. haha!!!!

I wished before, when im in my elementary grade that "sana di na ginawang umiyak ni god ang mga tao, para wala kang nakikitang nasasaktan" (i wish that god didnt create the people cry, so that you cant see them that they are grieving for something or what) Cause im a cry baby before, but now i trained myself not to cry on, even if our topic goes with my family… but sometimes i cant resist not to cry, i wish that its raining outside and invite my friends to come out and feel the droplets of water flowing down your face, sobbing but still keep smiling.

UNPRETTY

My outsides look cool

My insides are blue

Everytime I think I'm through

It's because of you

I've tried different ways

But it's all the same

At the end of the day

I have myself to blame

I'm just trippin'

the world that we are now living-in is full of criticism. the way you dress up, the way you look, the kind of aura that you posses, everything. the people surrounds you criticize it all... there is some sort of time that I feel that I'm not the person who's in the mirror, I can't imagine that "I'm not me". how could I actually manage to dress myself up just to impress the crowd... not to have any bad comments on them, sometimes I'm thinking of bringing back my other side in the scenario. spiky hair, tight fitting clothes,(but not that tight) baggy jeans, and dont forget my dark gothic eyes... I do really think that my crowd would actually say, "OMG, si Dominic ba ung nakita ko".. na, I think they can't actually digest that kind of look...

Sometimes, I walk in the streets of Tarlac City during my college days in a "skirt", or sometimes in a thai sarong that my tito gar gave to me. or sometimes in my own designed wardrobe. The students actually making some gossips about my look. then it will be posted in the bulletin board. but the thing is, I'm just enjoying the fact that I'm unique. having my own fashion statement.

Brands actually fools you.

filipinos nowadays spending thousands of pesos(sometimes dollars) for having the latest bag from LV, newest operation from the leading plastic surgeons just to be beautiful, collectors edition make-up from the leading brands of cosmetics etc... how could they manage all of that.. just to be presentable in the eyes of the madlang people you would actually invest on it?? duh... For me, that was just for their ego's... they were already forgetting who they are.. it's so hard to accept but it's actually true. they dont actually give some importance on the "real" them.. why do you need to masked yourself on the material things that surrounds you? are you forgetting that the creator creates you in a different way from the others?? THINK ABOUT THAT..