joyride to lifetime

You got a fast car But is it fast enough so we can fly away We gotta make a decision We leave tonight or live and die this way 

-fast car by tracy chapman

Love is like driving on nowhere.. then a traffic light bumps your enjoyment...  (sight)
Let's put it this way.. love is like a traffic light... which it has three colors that becomes a guide to us when to stop, take some actions and let go..

First...

STOP

Loving someone so much doesn't mean that they were the right one for us... sometimes, you give all of you on that person, then he/she dont appreciate it that much.. which it hurts sometimes.. Sometimes, they will make you jealous so that they could see how much do you love them. And sometimes Love don't mean it ends on a happy ending.. because I know that love is never ending.. you can't stop it to the point that you cant actually returns. And it so hard to think also that "sometimes they can't afford to love you back as the way you love them." I know that is the irony of love but can I change it up? just for a change???

GO

"letting go doesn't mean giving up.. it is accepting things that cannot be."
It is just like a stuff that youve been actually invested it but at the end of the day, after you have it, it will actually stolen or fall into pieces. It is better that you gave it up or loosely freed it so that no one would be hurt that much as you've hurt yourself by loosing it.  as the saying say's you cant go to a place  that is not destined to you... Loving someone is setting them free and letting them go...

WAIT

then do some actions...

you dont know that there is a certain person that love you most, either your family or your closest friends. But you might not know... He is the person that will love you the way as you love the other person involved. he is the person also that accompanied you on your joyride that will actually be the person that you will share your ride to the lifetime.(and i hope that is was you..)

:)

NOSTALGIC ME

There are places we cant return, There are Lies you have to tell, Andtruths you cant deny.

quoted from the movie "Brokeback Mountain"

there are some times that you cant deny the fact that you fell in love in the right person on the wrong place, wrong time, and definitely at the wrong scenario. where in you should sacrifice everything for the sake of the relationship grows. just like taking the rain on the roof of my empty house, or by taking some tears now and let them fall out after he left me alone.

DAMN it.

I wished that I didn't met him for not experiencing this kind of pain....

MEAN it.

although I kept on lying on myself that he will come back....

And ACCEPT it..

that he will not love you the way that he loved you before.

THE LESSON THAT I LEARNED FROM IT:

So, finding the right person was not that simple, it actually makes you feel stupid by waiting for the perfect one.. but the person that comes on your life has so many flaws.. just accept that person and learn how to loved him the way that he loves you...  and while I'm waiting for that person, try to raise your VALORE so that the person that you are dreaming off could not afford to have you... although that person is getting married soon.. what the hect.. but I'm happy for that person and his future bride... best wishes to the two of you...

bitterness....

being bitter sometimes can heal a broken heart.. that was my philosophy right now.... with a cup of coffee in hand and a burning cigarette on the other while creating this post.. what the heck..