the saddest quote that i ever read...

"i was walking in the rain so no one see me crying"

-Sir Charlie Chaplin

Charlie Chaplin was known for being the funniest man in the world, where people doesn’t know that he doesn’t have any problem regarding with the issues that he encountering in his entire life…. when i read about that quote in my inbox, i felt sad about it, cause why he do that kind of stuff… why he can’t express what he feels in private? why he do it under the pouring rain?

I get confuse on it, i don’t know why, why am i putting up myself on that kind of situation, maybe because im scared to cry, or maybe im a little bit confuse on what kind of effect on it afterwards…. (eye bags, watery eyes, or maybe red eye) what if, if i try to cry under the rain??? Maybe it is a little bit effective to hide on public that i’ve cried, right??? at least many people see me bathing under it but they doesn’t know that i’m already crying…. haha!!!!

I wished before, when im in my elementary grade that "sana di na ginawang umiyak ni god ang mga tao, para wala kang nakikitang nasasaktan" (i wish that god didnt create the people cry, so that you cant see them that they are grieving for something or what) Cause im a cry baby before, but now i trained myself not to cry on, even if our topic goes with my family… but sometimes i cant resist not to cry, i wish that its raining outside and invite my friends to come out and feel the droplets of water flowing down your face, sobbing but still keep smiling.

UNPRETTY

My outsides look cool

My insides are blue

Everytime I think I'm through

It's because of you

I've tried different ways

But it's all the same

At the end of the day

I have myself to blame

I'm just trippin'

the world that we are now living-in is full of criticism. the way you dress up, the way you look, the kind of aura that you posses, everything. the people surrounds you criticize it all... there is some sort of time that I feel that I'm not the person who's in the mirror, I can't imagine that "I'm not me". how could I actually manage to dress myself up just to impress the crowd... not to have any bad comments on them, sometimes I'm thinking of bringing back my other side in the scenario. spiky hair, tight fitting clothes,(but not that tight) baggy jeans, and dont forget my dark gothic eyes... I do really think that my crowd would actually say, "OMG, si Dominic ba ung nakita ko".. na, I think they can't actually digest that kind of look...

Sometimes, I walk in the streets of Tarlac City during my college days in a "skirt", or sometimes in a thai sarong that my tito gar gave to me. or sometimes in my own designed wardrobe. The students actually making some gossips about my look. then it will be posted in the bulletin board. but the thing is, I'm just enjoying the fact that I'm unique. having my own fashion statement.

Brands actually fools you.

filipinos nowadays spending thousands of pesos(sometimes dollars) for having the latest bag from LV, newest operation from the leading plastic surgeons just to be beautiful, collectors edition make-up from the leading brands of cosmetics etc... how could they manage all of that.. just to be presentable in the eyes of the madlang people you would actually invest on it?? duh... For me, that was just for their ego's... they were already forgetting who they are.. it's so hard to accept but it's actually true. they dont actually give some importance on the "real" them.. why do you need to masked yourself on the material things that surrounds you? are you forgetting that the creator creates you in a different way from the others?? THINK ABOUT THAT..